saknaden.

Ibland vaknar jag mitt i natten av kylan att du inte ligger bredvid. Vill att du ska hålla om mig, och jag vill kunna leka med ditt hår. Ser på andra och när dom har sina stunder, och vet att vi kunde haft det lika bra, du och jag. Saknar dig så mycket att jag nästan bara vill ta en taxi hem till dig och säga hur ja känner, men det hade inte spelat någon roll nu, nu när det är försent. Vill att allt ska vara som förr att jag kan vakna upp av ett gulligt sms eller somna till din röst, Sova tätt in till dig höra hur ditt hjärta slår. Vill uppleva det med dig igen allt det vi gjorde och allt vi kan göra. Du kommer alltid finnas kvar, för du är den enda mitt hjärta kunde banka för.

JAG SAKNAR DIG!.

thinling of you agian.

I think of you sometimes, and i always ending up were we could be, we were going to do so mutch, we had so many plans, but now it is all gone. And i`m here whit my phone in my hand i want to call you but i know that when i here your voice i will be speachless. Why cant my heart just be on broken.

It is true.

I feel like someting is missing, like a big black hole in my heart. It is because of you , of what you did, even if you dident do so mutch. But the fact that you dident do anyting, you just left becuse you wanted to have fun on your little trip. Wish we could switch up the roles And I could be that persen who just dont give a shit. Be the one who says when you call that you are out somewere having fun and cant talk. Dont take this wrong cuz i can have fun without you to, but the thing is i dont put it in your face that i been out party untill 7 in the morning just to make you sad, but i wish that i could do that but i cant I`m to nice, i dont want to hurt anyone even if you say it dosnt hurt you, i know it dose. Everthing was so good before you were leving for this trip and i know it is just becuse of that, whay we are not together now. I wanted to be with you day and night, just to be by your side so that i could show you that I care, and still i know that my love is real and my feelings pure, so if you would just forget about being prod and say that you wanted to try agian, i know that i will let you in, even if you were the only one that hurt me. You dont even need to ask me why, you know how i feel. Because I know, it‘s true, I‘m still in love with you.

I cant wait.

I`m going to Portugal soon I hope. I just whant to get away from this place, from this weather and from all the bull shit thats goes around. And i will soon be on my way to my paradise. And i just cant wait. I want to fall asleep and then wake up in my bed over there.

Think twice.

Think twice before you say your words. It may dont be the words you want to say.

Hide what your thinking.

Thats whats almost every people try to do, try to hide what they rellay feel inside. Yes that is someting you do if you dont know the persen or if it someting that is really personal. But then it is people like you who feel in one way and show another. But not becuse it hurt to tell the trut but becuse you whant to be proad and dont show that you really are weak. Okay maby you dont love me but you still care and i can tell it even if we dont speak that mutch anymore. Like when my friend talk to you and you asked if she was with me, and she wasent so you started to ask were i were and when she said that i was in an other city at a party you suddenly changed you way of talking. I know you care and if it is so hard for you to show that to me whay do you even talk about me to people that know me to. I care about you even if we dont date anymore. But the diffrent beteen us is that im not to prod to show it. You are a wonderful persen in your ways but then you have a side that i dident se before now. And i dont like it. You know even if im at a party dosent it mean that im with someone else i still love you i do so i promes that i will respekt you and wait. but the question is if you will respekt my feelings to. Becuse even if you and me are`t we anymore we still care and we still have someting but just not the same as it was before you run away. And that isn`t someting that i think to make me feel better that s someting you and I show but in different ways of doing it.

// karolin